Pink Magic

 

I've been feeling rather green all day and there's definitely been a lack of colour in my cheeks as well as in my day. I shamefully bought two Yves Saint Laurent rings (one in black and one in pink) and although I ordered the pink one over a week ago and payed for the black stone ring yesterday, I received the black ring in the mail today. Fortunately with the much awaited photographs of Deadly Ponies new collection including the colour magenta as well as a few sunsets and surreal photographs including pink I feel a little better. I bet if I was a graceful mermaid I wouldn't feel this deep funk I'm in as well as this weird state of missing school. I have nothing to do for the next month or so except for continue to blog and keep trying to sell things on eBay- yes it is a very exciting existence.

One day I will drag myself from the comfort of the office chair and computer woke station and trawl the streets of Japan as well as many other notable cities of the world with my camera in hand drinking in exotic aromas, street food and absorbing bountiful amounts of culture and fashion. Until then I shall remain sorting out many of the images stored on my computer as well as wistfully writing about popular and amazing labels for jewellery, clothing, shoes and other accessories in an attempt to sooth my taste for fashion. It's never going to work though, if I hadn't have blogged about the Yves Saint Laurent Arty Ovale ring then I would never have bought two.

I've already posted this exact photograph of model Sky Ferreira chewing on a stick of mint gum but that was untouched and had minimal Photoshop appeal about it as opposed to its pink counterpart. That's the great thing about being blond, your hair can naturally take to dyes of all sorts of colours and the art of digital editing can also create the illusion of pink hair. The pink hair is given a real and edginess with eyeliner and mascara framing the outer edges of Sky's eyes- I prefer myself to have long and extended wisps of eyeliner in a cat-like effect.

I'm not one to wear a lot of pink myself but I do have a rather nice pink blouse in a silk-like fabric covered in small swallows in dark blue ink. They're about the size of the eye of a needle each so not as iconic as the Miu Miu 2012 collection but at the time I bought it I was mad for the runway models and the campaign so buying a thirty dollar blouse I love to death and wear about five times a month seemed like a good investment at the time. Once I find myself a pink maxi dress full of pleats and a bustier like front I think I'll be quit fixed of the pink phase in terms of clothing, shoes and accessories is an entirely different ballgame I'm afraid...

After having been there myself, I can confidently conclude that this is not the Disneyland Princess castle of California but may however be a newer Disneyland location- I'm not accustomed to seeing this jagged bridge and prefer the straight and narrow path myself to the castle but the swirling metal silhouette of Peter Pan's Tinkerbelle towards the top most tower is a nice touch. Both are painted in that familiar newborn baby girl pink that so many little one suits as well as young girl's toys are made out of.

Everything seemed to prosperous and prospective last week when I had a half a thousand dollars available in my bank account, I was even tempted to get some pink perfume, maybe Miss Dior of Viktor and Rolf's Flowerbomb in bright sparkly pink but since I caved in to desire once again, I'm back at square one. In the old days of my eBay use having my money at home was most perilous but since starting an PayPal account and linking it to my bank account it seems 'saving' my money is getting very tricky what with all the hours I spend online searching for vintage pieces as well as new and exciting foreign brands.

Kid's Fun

Life seems to rush at you in the most impossible ways but as you grow up it's all sort of expected really: one day you're a kind going to kindergarten, the next you're in primary school showing mum and dad you're best coloured drawings then it's all posters and presentations in high school then university creeps up on you just as you're relaxing after examinations and trying to enjoy life again. This is just me pottering about and having a quarter-life crisis or something and just wondering when the time got away from me and when I developed into the adult I am with all this free-thought and ideas. Receiving university offers and all that should have excited me but it seems more depressing really that I'll see some of the same old and tired face when I move on to the next stage in life and it won't be everything I've made it out to be in the last few weeks.

For one thing I feel tirelessly obsessed over my weight and compensated today by having three courses of salad and lettuce leaves in a sorry attempt to clean my stomach clean and lose a little weight. I think I liked it better when I wasn't concerned over trying to fit inside tiny vintage clothing and I didn't think so much about impressing my beau or using the numbers on my scales to feel good about myself. It would be nice to eat without the same guilt that I do now, but I guess that's what happens when you grow up with tiny Barbie as your role model and unrealistic stick thin models to look up to.

Something nice about my teenage life and young adulthood is my love of photography and owning my fair share of cameras, my pride and joy being a hot pink Diana F+ as well as a Lomo LCA+ both re-issued by Lomography. While I would have never been trusted with a real camera in my hands as a child and not showing any real promise on school camps at least I have an art to hone now and maybe something to aspire towards. Today I feel oddly empty of all the promising opportunities I thought were lying on the horizon. I'm not necessarily sad, but when one feels such an aching emptiness they want something to fill it up. I'm bashing my fingers against a keyboard myself and attempting to write better words since everything I could have possibly done to get into the university of my dreams is at an end. I'll compromise this year and take up an extra arty course at a TAFE or something since my course can't be as demanding as what I wanted it to be.

 

I shouldn't feel as sad and empty as I do, it's not the end of the world and anyone else in my position would really be quite pleased with what they've achieved and the opportunities they have but I just wish I had more of a brain to succeed or more of an inclination towards arts and crafts. I'm still trying to figure out who I want to be despite being in my skin for the last eighteen years but it's only now that I've sort of got the feeling that everything is starting now and I'm beginning life as an adult. Sooner or later I'll finally have my license and a car to drive and then there'll be moving out, and in my own place without parents and having to look out for myself... It only seems scary because I'll be leaving the life I've always known and taken comfort in and there'll be money to worry about properly for the first time in my life. While everything won't happen at once and I'll gently ease in to everything I can't help but feel terrified of growing up and just wanting to revert back into my childhood and start all over again.

The American Dream

These photos don't belong to me, nor am I in them but their relevance to me is that at this time last year after all the hype and excitement from Christmas had died down I was getting ready for my twenty day trip to America. I'd like to return and go back, but for now I'll settle for reminiscing and looking at someone else's experience of their trip to America as well as pouring my eyes over lovely vintage inspired Disney watches that feature lovable characters with animated arms that move around the watch face to tell the time. Spending a single day at Disneyland really isn't enough, and I would love to search around and snap up what I can using my arsenal of film cameras to capture the action again. Maybe getting a three day pass would be best for such an expedition but I should make the most of my home city and try to do tourist things hear instead.

I barely took any photographs beside classic Disney characters because the lines were very long and full of children a lot younger than me but I do regret it a lot! I have a lovely shot of a Chip 'N Dale chipmunk at the main area at which all the costumed characters gathered but it was a small trophy from what I got to experience there and the joy I felt to walk through those hallowed gates and explore the polished and all plastic and child safe world of Disneyland California. At the moment I'm trying to persuade my mother to go to Hong Kong's Disneyland with me after we save to go to Canada to meet my mum's best friend. If I nag her enough and do well in school and university than I should have her eating out of the palm of my hand at any moment...

I went to Disneyland without getting a hug from Mickey Mouse... despite having quite a few Disney pieces of memorabilia from my childhood such as a professional photograph of my brother and I aged eight and four wearing shirts and holding a Mickey Mouse toy. Also I have plans to buy some Disney looking clothes from the online store of Lazy Oaf, that is a bodycon skirt featuring the iconic red and two oval buttons as well as a baseball shirt with what looks to be the mouse and the word 'Mick' on it. I have such a great love for the characters and was even going to get a Minnie Mouse watch with animated hands but chose instead to get a cat watch with moving eyes. Still- my great love of the characters has been a part of my youth and I didn't get a photo with Minnie or Mickey? Shame, shame shame...

Running around loose on Disneyland did mean we spent a ride on the teacups at night with all the overhead lanterns lit up above us, right after we got our official Disneyland caps! I got mine stitched with my name on the back and a classic design as well as a Chip N' Dale merchandise cap because it looked very soft and cool and has come in useful since at costumed themed school free dress days and a party. I do feel proud of the sights we saw and the rides we went on and enjoyed but we barely scratched the surface, I mean, my tour group didn't even get to go down to Disneyland California Adventure and see some of the more recent movie characters and stuff like that which was pretty annoying. Guess that gives me a reason to return then.

Despite missing out on buying all the hats I desired at Disneyland, Lazy Oaf an English brand have made a few cool, couple of spoof items off the iconic movie masters which I can buy without looking like a complete dork. They had a hat that looked like goody with hanging ears on the sides, but I think that one has been discontinued but there's badges as well as other goodies just waiting around with my name on them. Once my money comes in for working as a Christmas casual then I can really let loose but a few hundred dollars will have to get over into my account to save for overseas trips and be good.

Another thing left undone on my visit to America was checking out baseball games and walking through New York city but I was very happy to pick up a mock baseball jersey with the words 'Alcatraz Hardball' on the back. I should really check out some of games of America's favourite past time but I think that is another trip for another day and I will definitely need to get my head out of the clouds and back on to working when I can... if not there's always blogging and trying to earn a little bread from that as well but at the moment it's not looking too likely.